Freaky. Missed 1 Band practise and everything is a total stranger.

I don't know if you feel this way about me.
Everything about me to you is a total stranger.
I don't want to guess about your feelings anymore.
True. It was great. Just sitting there, imagining things from morning to night.
Now I feel it is really painful.
Imagining that you will come up to me; and reject me; looking at me straight in the eye.
Imagining that you will toy with my feelings.
Imagining that you will let me down; let me fall into a deep pit; let me die; just there.
I know that all these are just possibilities. But I am scared. Afraid.
Not of you. It is this bond between us. One wrong move or step might cause us to drift apart.
Could you just tell me how you feel?
Just tell me how you feel. I will accept it just like that.
Bear in mind that I fear rejection.
I have felt it before. Not ready to feel it again. I was crushed. Broken. Barely healed when I met you.
I want to hear the three words that will make a difference in my life...
~~* i love u *~~

Dedicated to my *crush*.

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Very long since I last blogged. Haha. Band practise becoming more sian. I dunno what to say about Band practises anymore. (:
Saturday didn't go for band and missed loads sia. Trust him to come up with so many gimmicks in one day. Btw, is dat how you spell gimmicks? No idea. (:
Haiz... Feeling so happy and excited this week cause band camp coming up. Whee! Hope I will be in the same group as my best friends!!! Meryl, Lisa, Siyan, Vanessa, Joyce, Jiamin, JiaJun, Shannon. Luv you all! Muahx. (:
happi.happi.happi.happi.happi.happi. (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:
Full of energy. Lolx. see ya tmr if possible. nitex. (:(:(:(:(:
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Hmm I think this (: nicer.